It's hard to explain what happened after I got the news that Jonathan was dead. He was gone, out of my life, never to be seen again. From one moment to another, I had just lost the love of my life. And it was all my fault. I should've never let him go like that. I didn't even get to tell him I loved him one last time. Life hates me so much. Now what was gonna become of me now that Jonathan was gone? He was my boyfriend, my life, my everything. There was no reason for living if he wasn't in my life anymore...
The rest of that week, all I did was go to the park like a bum with my bottle of vodka and just forget... forget. I didn't even dare to go back to the bar where I had met Jonathan. No way. That would completely destroy me. Instead, my days were made up of going to the park and staying locked in my room. I didn't even eat sometimes... all i did was sleep... and dream the dreams.
One day before I went to bed, I decided to pray to God for once.
"God, I don't know If you exist like everyone says, but if you do, then please... please, bring him back. You don't understand, I NEED him with me. He's everything I ever asked for in my life and now that I was finally happy you took him away from me! Why did you do that for?....... I hope you know that you killed me with that. If you're really magical like everyone says you are, then bring him back for me and i'll do anything, absolutely ANYTHING for him to be alive again."
I stopped to think for a minute.
"Who am I kidding? I think I've gone insane now... pretending to talk to God. What is wrong with me?" And with that, I went to bed.
That's when I had the dream. That night, I dreamed of God, or at least I thought I did. Well, it goes like this: I was all dressed in white and I was in a completely white place. It looked kinda foggy and there was nothing, i mean NOTHING in that place. No one to talk to either. Just then, I saw a tall man with medium length brown hair and all dressed in white come up to me. He gave me this feeling of comfort and serenity and he had this really special glow. It's something that no one can explain.
"Who are you and what am I doing here?" I asked.
"You're in heaven and this is your Father you have in front of you."
"So... you're telling me you're... God?"
"Yes. I believe you already know why I wanted to speak to you. I don't know if you think i'm real or not, but you must believe with your heart. I heard what you said, about wishing I could give Jonathan back to you. I'm afraid that's not possible."
"Why not?!! You're God! You can do ANYTHING!"
"Yes i can but if i decided to bring Jonathan back to me was for a reason. This isn't a game young lady, there is no 'undo' button."
"Please please PLEASE! I'll do anything you ask me... I'll even trade my own life for his! Just please let him live, I can't go on knowing he's dead. Please!"
"Well, if you really must, there is something you can do..."
"Just tell me and I'll do it!"
"Well, I will send Jonathan back, but in return, you must take the place and responsibility of someone's guardian angel for a month. You young people need to understand what it's like to have to care for people so reckless and careless like yourself. Maybe this way, you will learn a life lesson. You will need to work hard to protect and care."
"HA! Me? A Guardian Angel? I can't even care for myself!"
"Exactly, that's why now you have to be on the other side. You will learn the real value of life. You will have to protect one of your own and realize that what you have done with your life is no good. So, the choice is yours... do you want to take it or reject it?"
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